thoughts. (original with dedication)

i havent felt a genuine connection to someone like you in quite some time. i put a lot of strain on you with the things that i say. i understand and apologize. sometimes though, people genuinely do care, without an alternative agenda, or some underhanded bullshit. i got no game, which means there is no game for me to win, and its true. im losing this. this is for you and you alone. sometimes people genuinely do care, love and accept you, for you, who you are, the way you are, with no hidden agenda. its rare but this is how i feel. you're amazing (doubt youll ever read it, but i think youll know who you are if you read this) i wish i could explore what could be with you.



Are You There? (Anathema)

Are you there?
is it wonderful to know
all the ghosts...
all the ghosts...
freak my selfish out
my mind is happy
need to learn to let it go
I know you'd do no harm to me

but since you've been gone I've been lost inside
tried and failed as we walked by the riverside
and I wish you could see the love in her eyes
the best friend that eluded you lost in time
burned alive in the heat of a grieving mind

but what can I say now?
it couldn't be more wrong
cos there's no one there
unmistakably lost and without a care
did we lose all the love that we could have shared
and its wearing me down
and its turning me round
and I can't find a way
now to find it out
where are you when I need you...

are you there?