Follow Up To The Irony Post

Last night I get a random ass email (I will post the whole back and forth conversation with names removed for privacy) from this same person. Evidently they had read my blog and had an issue with it (there was no way they could have read my profile, since as previously stated they were removed). I find it ever so amusing that even though I have made my desire to stop communicating clear, that this person decided to see what was going on in my life YET AGAIN and then contact me regarding my thoughts. This person continually fails to understand that their actions have consequences (they do regardless of whether you understand and acknowledge them or not) and as such, there have already been consequences for your previous actions whether you realize it or not (try and contact me again and there will be serious ramifications. I am done fucking around). What many people (this one in particular) fails to realize, is that people can only be pushed so far. I have hit my limit, and since you decided to not listen (let me reiterate here, that in order to understand someone, you must listen) and since you continue to not listen (it was pretty much a trend from day one, and I have numerous examples of such) you have never understood me. Some claim that ignorance is bliss, I say not so. Some people just dont get it and never will. I have stopped making sense in my head and lost my train of thought, but I might pick this rant up again in the future... Anyways, onto the promised conversation (which was not initiated by myself, nor did I have any desire to start any other conversation or communication with this person)



----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ANONYMOUS
Date: Aug 24, 2008 9:01 PM


your a fucking prick
go to hell you bastard


----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ..In Search For I..
Date: Aug 24, 2008 9:13 PM


i was going to hell before i had your blessing


----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ANONYMOUS
Date: Aug 24, 2008 9:16 PM



wasnt a blessing
it was a wish
good to know it came true



----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: ..In Search For I..
Date: Aug 24, 2008 9:18 PM
now that you got that out of your system are you gonna leave me alone?



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Aint This The Fuckin Truth

I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in.
I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know what I've been hiding in

Ironic isn't it?

So I get an email yesterday from a certain someone who tells me that they miss our friendship... Funny, I didn't make the choice to end it. Yes, I did delete your profile from my myspace, but here's the thing... Its MYspace. Not YOURspace. Not OURspace. Its MYspace and therefore MY decision on who stays and who goes. Don't like it? Tough shit. Here's the funny part though, and I'm going to quote your response to my point of view on this matter: 'well I'm choosing to not be friends anymore' sure sounds like you made the decision rather than me... So when you come back to me with this 'I miss our friendship' line and then try and pin the end of it on me expecting me to be understanding and apologetic, you are mistaken. I don't buy that shit. Take some responsibility for your fuckin actions, make a choice, deal with the consequences. That's how real life works. You can't fuckin pass all your problems and the consequences of your actions onto others, it doesn't work that way. As far as the friendship, you made the decision, and I'm stickin to it. Miss me? Tough shit. I'm done.

Anyone, Anywhere

No one seems to care anymore
I wander through this night all alone
No one feels the pain I have inside
Looking at this world through my eyes

No one really cares where I go
Searching to feel warmth forever more
The wheels of life they turn without me
Now you are gone... eternally

No...
Don't leave me here
The dream carries on
Inside
I know...
Its not too late
Lost moments blown away
Tonight

Mankind, with your heresy
Can't you see that this is killing me
There's no one in this life
To be here with me at my side

Do you ever just get to feeling like...

You want to say Fuck It to everything, and walk away from it all?

Thoughts... v2.0

As the pressure grows and these feelings flow
Trample on bodies, bodies in holes of faith
Times I've asked the lord for forgiveness
While kept under a spell of a sweating locust's breath
No need to tell me 'cause it's written on your face
Sliding down now with the black lights shining

I don't care where you go you won't get away from me
Black as the night is day filled with no sympathy
Marching down the hall for a misery
I don't care where you go, you won't get away from me

Mouth tastes of sick, stomach twist inside
Everything's wrong and I can't get away
The gravity of fear you can feel it coming near
It's coming straight for you, it'll twist and drag you down

I don't care where you go, you won't get away from me