delicate. (You Only Get One.)

Yet another night of alcohol fueled self-examination. this isnt even a fucking poem. i am not coherent enough to string together a poem or another pitiful attempt at a lame fucking song. this is emotion, raw and real. how i feel, and this... is the final foray into this heart of mine. i can no longer take exposing bits and pieces under the armor and being stabbed or poisoned, slashed or hacked, battered or bruised. if you arent in, your not getting in. if your out, your out. if you are in, you better watch your fuckin step because one slip and your gone. you have been warned.


so many song lyrics are popping into mind, however one sticks... ill share it at the end of my own drunk, stupid ramblings. i got burned again. those four words seem to cover it. but they dont. at all. tainted words forming pure promises. what to say? what to think? what to feel? i knew far better than to stick my toes in the pool lest i get sucked in. fallen victim to life and love's cruel trickery once again. in my darkest hour, a hand offered, to pull me from the mire in which i suffered alone. a breath i gasped before being cast down again, further again than previously experienced. dark thoughts surrounded by darker night. emotions now under lock and key. damaged at a point most vulnerable. stupid decisions, a wavering thought... worn proudly as scars of the heart. seen by none. pain worn by one. im listening to a few different songs on repeat... i really hope some of the writers will take this heat... i really was hesitant for a reason, yet no tears roll down my face. i am why im in this place. its my own damn fault. drink the pain away. drop by drop, alcohol in the system, blood out of the heart. drink it empty. drop by drop. it doesnt take as much as i thought, to drink the pain away. i dont even know what the fuck im saying anymore.





We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate

So why'd you fill my sorrows
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've known
And why'd ya sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why'd you sing with me at all?

We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate

So why'd you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place that you've known
And why'd you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why'd you sing with me at all?

And why'd you fill my sorrows
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place that you've known
Why'd you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why'd you sing with me at all?