To Everyone... And Noone

The inequity of fate
The pains of love and hate
The heart-sick memories
That brought you to your knees

And the times when we were young
When life seemed so long
Day after day
You burned it all away

All the hate that feeds your needs
All the sickness you conceive
All the horror you create
Will bring you to your knees

thoughts...

I am no savior
And I ain't no saint
They will take me to the electric chair
Yeah, Ha ha ha

No remorse
And no regrets
For those I've sent straight to hell

I have my demons
They're all here in my cell
They're all here and follow me everywhere

My hate controls me
And gives me strength
My only protection inside the walls

Dying. Desiring. Crying. Dying.
Dying. Desiring. Crying. Dying.

The walls are closing in
My cell is getting smaller
Soon, all the pains must cease
Life will end here

My final days are coming
I can wash away this pain
My body's getting colder
Oh, I feel so unafraid

Dying. Desiring. Crying. Dying.
Dying. Desiring. Crying. Dying.

The walls are closing in
My cell is getting smaller
Soon, all the pains must cease
Life will end here

My final days are counting
I can wash away this pain
My body's getting colder
Oh, I feel so unafraid

On death row.

Weak and Powerless

Let me clarify something first. THIS IS ABOUT ME AND MYSELF AND WHAT I HOPE TO DISCOVER WHILE IM NOT WORKING. Im lost, and as well as cleaning up the mess and tying up all the loose ends, I want to find myself again.

Tilling my own grave to keep me level
Jam another dragon down the hole
Digging to the rhythm and the echo of a solitary siren
One that pushes me along and leaves me so

Desperate and ravenous,
So weak and powerless over you
Someone feed the monkey while I dig in search of China
White as Dracula as I approach the bottom

Desperate and ravenous,
So weak and powerless over you

Little angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
Promised I would find a little solace
And some peace of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so

Desperate and ravenous,
So weak and powerless

Desperate and ravenous,
So weak and powerless
Over you

Electricity

I honestly cannot listen to this song enough... It has been on repeat for a solid week... lyrics:

Seems like you never really knew me
Seems like you never understood me
Seems like you never really knew how to feel
But electricity it drew you near to me
What you needed was to be rid of me

There were times you really made me smile
And there were times you really made me cry
And there were times I never really knew how to feel
But electricity it drew you near to me
What you needed was to be rid of me
And the fear made you so unsure of me
What you needed was to be rid of me.

But electricity it drew you near to me
What you needed was to be rid of me
And the fear made you so unsure of me
What you needed was to be rid of me.


Im gonna cover this one day... Keep checkin back for it

Cold & Ugly

Underneath her skin and jewelry,
hidden in her words and eyes
is a wall that's cold and ugly
and she's scared as hell.
Trembling at the thought of feeling.
Wide awake and keeping distance.
Nothing seems to penetrate her.
She's scared as hell.

I am frightened to.

Wide awake
and keeping distance from my soul.
I am scared like you.

Feelings in a Nutshell

You know you ain't going nowhere
You're stuck inside while the mind is flying
You said you'd help me in the morning
Twisting on pins into my eyes
And dragging on the ceiling below you
Fixing up the walls with your crooked hands
While you're miles away, miles away, miles away

I didn't think it'll all end up like this
There's spiders on the wall and they stink of piss
Dead heads lying in the corner
Staring at me making me feel bad
I put my hands up to my eyes
But the holes in my palms let me find a way
To corner you

I can feel my chest crushing inwards
Sucking through my skin into my BRAIN
Oxygen pushing on the window cracks in the glass let
It slip away
I start to cry and I keep on laughing
I close my eyes at what's left inside
And then I'll ran away

For all the time this land
For all the time in my hand
Slip around in depth found
Calmness fall once again

Razor blades floating in the warm bath
Air bubbles in your veins turning my hands black
Whispers coming from the next room
Window cleaner keep on SPYING
I put my hands up to my eyes
But the HOLES in my PALMS let me find
A way to corner me

Twelve tonnes hammer for My breakfast
Slipping of the edge in catatonic blood
Multiple decibel inscriptions trying all they
Can in miles an hour... face
Grey and looming downwards
Sniffing all the time for a ounce of silence
Screaming all the way

Numbers counting down inside me
Solar system thoughts circle round my head
False teeth hanging from the ceiling
Feet looking of the goms of the 2nd son
I eat my hands cos my legs are crying
You Broke my neck cause I Snapped my spine
I wish you would Die away

To all the time in this land
And all the time in my hands
Circle Round in depth found
Calmness Fall once again

Issues.

Need some serious therapy. I honestly cannot believe the past few days of my life. Waltzing in and out at her leisure, making no sense, contradictions and hypocrisy the order of the day.